barkinmad: (Boo You Whore)
I am just so behind, and things are going to be getting any better. I have an exam on Thursday, a paper due Monday and then a final on Thursday. And that's just for one of my two classes. I go back to school that Saturday, and usually the next three to four days month is a collegiate blur of booze and pot and classes.


So I haven't been able to write or do anything of the sort, I've barely been able to mod [ profile] inceptionau (which, actually, doesn't seem to need much modding), and I'm afraid it's going to fail because even though it has 100 watchers (YAY!) there are only three non-mod posts. Drat. Hopefully the challenge will pick things up.

Also, can I mention that when a girl is walking really quickly through a university campus at night with a bunch of bags, it is not a good time to start chatting her up? I was passing this guy, and he was already a couple of feet behind me when he said hey, so I had to wheel around to make sure that I wasn't crazy and hearing voices or anything. My bus was leaving in four minutes across campus, and I told him such and started leaving, and he was like calling after me asking if there was another time. DUDE. I'M IN A RUSH AND I'M CLEARLY NOT INTERESTED. JUST DROP IT.

I should be interviewing people for an essay I have to write tomorrow. For a class about television, which I was REALLY excited about, it turned out to be kinda sucky. I think I'm just annoyed that I had to go back to the real world after my weekend of pure awesome. If anyone feels the need to share in my pain about the end of Sherlock, you may do so in the comments.
barkinmad: (We Are Not Amused)
So now my journal looks ugly until next "month".


BRB, deleting as much as I'm willing.

Update: I don't any new bandwidth until the 23rd. Drat.
barkinmad: (Failure)


(I honestly can't be infuriated when JGL is making that adorable look in my mood theme, can I? Yes I can.)
barkinmad: (Uncle Doctor Sam)
I missed something today. Something huge. I am rarely, if ever, serious on this journal. Hell, I'm rarely anything on this journal or serious in real life. But this is just too big an issue, too upsetting to ignore or not discuss.

This story was posted on the [ profile] spn_j2_bigbang today.

Okay. So.

The author has issued a public apology. There have been many comments and discussions both in the threads for the story and the SPN anonmeme and on countless journals, as I can imagine. This was brought to my attention by [ profile] faunaana who stated her opinion very intelligently and gracefully. Most major points have been gathered in this post while fic quotes have been copied and pasted here. It's a lot to go through, and I admit, I didn't make it all the way through myself (it's late and I've had a long day), but I think some very interesting perspectives are brought up about exactly why this is story is as offensive as it is.

Is it:
a) the exploitation of a country and its people who are deep in suffering and mourning to facilitate gay sex between two fictionalized versions of real people?
b) the propagation of racist stereotypes that pervade the media?
c) the author's ignorance and "I didn't mean to offend!" intent not being enough to excuse the fact that she did, in fact, offend? Greatly? Or is it
d) all of the above.

I'm going with D. This is all wrong. It's all just too fucking wrong. I am pretty much in deep shock at this. I must be having a reaction, because I'm writing about it, but I don't actually feel anything. Whatever, enough about me. I'm missing the point.

Of the quotes I did read, this one stuck out at me:

- Abraham watched the cab turn into traffic, then turned to grin at Jared. “Jensen say I bad driver,” he said. “But American drivers crazy.”

Jared laughed. “He wasn’t American, Abraham,” he said, grinning back.

Probably not the least offensive comment out there, admittedly. The author did much worse work. But this stuck out at me because I hadn't seen it covered in discussion yet, and I wanted to take some time to do so. I want all the bases covered.

What exactly makes her think that someone who was not born in American isn't American?
This is obviously a different issue than the majority of what's being discussed. Perhaps I'm misreading the quote. But the fact that Jared simply assumes that since a person of any color other than white is driving a taxi, they must not be a citizen, they must not live here, they must not belong here. What the actual fuck? My rage is just so intense right now. As soon as someone says to me "I am American" that is their nationality. I don't care if they have their license, or a green card, or any legal permission to belong in this country. If they identify as one of us, they are one of us. It's as simple as that. Of course, this applies to any country of your choice, I'm simply describing the problem as it is written in the story. Maybe the driver wasn't American. Maybe he hated this country, couldn't wait to get out, or maybe he was planning on strapping a bomb under his car seat and making his way toward Times Square. But there is NO. WAY. that anyone has a right to assume something about someone's identity or character or nationality from a five second blip while they drive into traffic. It's just. It's too inexcusable for words.

Why are all people who aren't American inherently bad drivers?
This is more about the propagation of stereotypes. Both the black man and the man in the cab can't drive? And white people can freely make jokes about it? And this is...why? It's pretty clear what the answer to this is, but I really don't think that the question is asked often enough. Maybe if the author took a second to sit back and think for a second, or one of her beta's was curious or brave enough to ask questions they might not have liked the answer to, fandom wouldn't be in this situation. Why does no one ask questions? What's wrong with being devil's advocate? Groupthink is the opposite of what we want, and you'd think that in a nation that prides itself on individuality we would be more willing to respectfully disagree with each other out in the open. It would be the writer's personal problem, and that's that. But now it isn't. Now fandom deals with this, and discusses it (as it should be discussed - it's not a burden, but an opportunity), and comes up with all the reasons why this story is wrong. Because there are SO many reasons. So fucking many.

I'm aware I'm leaning heavily on pathos here because, surprise surprise, research, facts, and reasoning are not my strong points. But this is something that I feel, that I think now needs to be addressed in fandom that will hopefully reflect in our real lives as well. I didn't really talk about the true issue, I know. Admittedly, I'm skirting the issue instead of facing it head on because I'm currently too angry, and feel like I know too little about the situation. It's late, and I will hopefully take tomorrow to educate myself. There are millions of different opinions, ranging across the board, and there are always varying degrees of right and wrong (in this case, the writer happens to be VERY wrong). I hope people read this, I really do, I hope people read this and see what's happening and do something about it, but this isn't about what I want. It's about the story and pictures that got posted and what fandom is going to do about it in response. It's about the writer who needs to learn that not every idea is a good idea, and not everything in books, movies, television and radio is true.

P.S. Someone on the anon meme pointed out that they don't care whether the privileged white writer grows in self-discovery and gets closer enlightenment, just like the characters in her story. But I really don't see the point in just shutting someone up because you can't deal with racism in your fandom. If you don't want racism in fandom, you have to have a fandom without racist people. If they decide to be quiet, that doesn't make them any less racist, it just makes them silent racists, and that's not any better at all. I agree that not everything has to be about the white man learning about himself and becoming a truer person yadda yadda yadda, but we need to discuss these things, and we need to figure out why someone believes and thinks the way they do. That way, we can fight/correct/do something about it. We're not going to get that if we simply kick them out of fandom. Okay. I've said my piece. Goodnight.
barkinmad: (*faceplant*)
Today in English we're reading this play called "Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead" by Tom Stoppard. It's basically a "we know school is over but he's something to do" activity, and the play is actually pretty interesting ("Hamlet" turned inside out). Now, my teacher is known in school for his absolute awkwardness and his obsession with sex in literature. I'm not even joking. It's not dangerous or anything, it's just kind of creepy. So I'm reading the part of Rosencrantz, and there's a bit of sexual innuendo going on where he's all "Thirty-eight? Is that part of your...tableaux?" and the teacher stops to point out what's there. AND BEFORE I CAN STOP MYSELF I say "Yeah, like sixty-" AND THEN I COVER MY MOUTH WITH MY HANDS BUT IT WAS TOO LATE BECAUSE HE HAD LATCHED ON AND SAID IT TO THE REST OF THE CLASS AGAIN. GOOD GOD AM I STUPID.

Good times, good times.
barkinmad: (Goth Detectives)

I downloaded an LJ app today.

It's probably not great for my gpa.

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I now have two copies of King Lear and Henry the VI instead of Henry the IV. *FAIL*

Have been rearranging and reorganizing furniture with my roommate all day, and tonight I'm probably going to watch a movie. The downside about tomorrow is that my class (the first class of the semester, mind you) goes RIGHT through the inauguration. I'm hoping that my professor is kind-hearted and lets us watch because, seriously, it's Obama and I want to watch with a group of people instead of sitting by myself in front of a computer screen like I watch everything else.

Speaking of this:

GO WATCH HUGH LAURIE ON JAY LENO. Even if you're not a House fan (I'm not either, really, but I do love Hugh Laurie), Band from TV is the musical guest and IT'S SO. AWESOME. Really, Grunny is SO INTO IT and screaming "Yeah! Come on!" and rockin' out on the drums, and Jesse Spencer is playing the electric violin and Hugh Laurie is on the piano and Adrian Pasdar is on guitar, but he's like, playing it cool and not moving his fingers much and only joining in on the end of every sentence. IDK maybe he was drunk. Wouldn't surprise me. But I don't care 'cause it's AWESOME! WATCH IT!
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